Rebirth
This is new. A new phase, a pause to look at my life and change what needs changing. I dont know what the future holds, but the transition is hard work, tiring and also painful in places. I got here unprepared. I didnt expect this at all. This is a journey and not a holiday, it seems. I will use this space to write down my thoughts and feelings... because there are so many, I dont know where to put them. My family doesn't want to listen to me going on about how I feel and what is going on in my mind, and that I couldn't sleep - again - and that I am tired or feeling sad for no particular reason. I do understand that it is draining and somewhat "negative". We are in a world where people are always seeking happy and optimistic - but life isn't always happy and optimistic. Sometimes we have to feel the other side and trust and be still and go through what seems to be a dark and scary place. The years of menopause can be like a rollercoaster or even an earthquake. I ...